Green on the Inside

May the road rise to meet you. May the wind be always at your back. May the sun shine warm upon your face. And rains fall soft upon your fields. And until we meet again, May God hold you in the hollow of His hand. - Irish Blessing

Sunday, July 09, 2006

The Learning Curve


Dating is complicated. Well, not really, but I've come to realize that I have a lot to learn. So very much.

I had an epiphany last night, as my local WingGirl (not to be confused with Bat Girl!) and I sat at the bar, talking about my most recent experience with Southern Boy, and about dating in general. I realized that SB is just the 4th in a string of men/boys that fit a pattern that started nearly 13 years ago. The good thing is that I have now recognized the pattern and can now learn to take steps to avoid its repetition. Of course, WingGirl says she noticed the pattern long ago (as did she catch the two red flags with SB that I, the ostrich with my head in the sand, couldn't or didn't want to see), but naturally it was something I had to figure out for myself.

I'm now trying to stop feeling stupid. I know I'm not unlike most women, but that doesn't mean I don't feel like an idiot. How could I not have picked up on the signals? How did I not read the signs? I should have known better. But next time I will.

I'm just thankful that I'm finally learning from my mistakes. And I'm optimistic that I won't make them again. Of course, since there's such a big dating learning curve, I'm bound to make different ones. Let's just hope they're smaller.

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